Happy birthday to meeeeee

Happy birthday to meeeeee


Once again, I’ve fucked up. Haven’t been eating enough and been doing too much cardio. Got by body composition checked and I’ve actually gained two pounds in fat, while my weight loss has been from losing FOUR pounds of muscle and two from water. WTF. I thought it was just keto working, but nope.

I know better, too. I know i need to eat more and lift way more, not burn a shit ton and eat at a huge deficit. I don’t know how i got into this bad way. I’m paying for it now. Time to start again.


Good morning with keto cream cheese and flax waffles! So good. Don’t even need syrup, just butter and nom

Good morning with keto cream cheese and flax waffles! So good. Don’t even need syrup, just butter and nom


Finally, this is a positive post! I’m feeling really good lately and seeing actual progress. I can finally see my Venus dimples on my back!! And my stomach is shrinking like mad, I might even have the start of baby abs at the top. So even if my weight is hovering around 135, I know my body fat its probably the lowest its ever been :)
Feeling so good, I decided it was finally time to get my collarbone dermals and damn am I happy. My plan is to get another two once these heal. I had one dermal years ago that i had to have taken out, so I’m gonna be crazy careful with these.

Finally, this is a positive post! I’m feeling really good lately and seeing actual progress. I can finally see my Venus dimples on my back!! And my stomach is shrinking like mad, I might even have the start of baby abs at the top. So even if my weight is hovering around 135, I know my body fat its probably the lowest its ever been :)

Feeling so good, I decided it was finally time to get my collarbone dermals and damn am I happy. My plan is to get another two once these heal. I had one dermal years ago that i had to have taken out, so I’m gonna be crazy careful with these.


All i seem to do is vent here, but oh well.

I’ve seen 134.8 on the scale two times now, a month apart from each other, both for just a day before it went back up. Sigh.

Another frustrating thing is my inner thighs look disgusting lately. I never had cellulite before even at my highest weight, but now the skin there looks bumpy and pinchy and like its layered/lumpy/wrinkly? And it looks like pudding when i walk. Its so discouraging. I’ve heard that fat looks worse sometimes before it goes, I hope that’s all that’s going on….


Can’t sleep (4 am as I queue this). Realized I missed #ThrowbackThursday so, tada. Almost exactly two years apart, just a few days short. 45 lb difference, but bitchy resting face will remain always.

Can’t sleep (4 am as I queue this). Realized I missed #ThrowbackThursday so, tada. Almost exactly two years apart, just a few days short. 45 lb difference, but bitchy resting face will remain always.


Considering I haven’t been able to lift for awhile, my bum looks pretty good. My arm muscles have kinda shrunk, but the glutes havent much lol. Also, I bought these Pink leggings like 6 months ago in a small and they were kinda tight - they fit nicely now! Good stuff all around.

Considering I haven’t been able to lift for awhile, my bum looks pretty good. My arm muscles have kinda shrunk, but the glutes havent much lol. Also, I bought these Pink leggings like 6 months ago in a small and they were kinda tight - they fit nicely now! Good stuff all around.


Why did i wait so long to try and make these? Cream cheese pancakes are amazing

Why did i wait so long to try and make these? Cream cheese pancakes are amazing


I use Buckle jeans to check progress, and holy crap these are a 26 waist in the Rock Revivals. Damn good.

I use Buckle jeans to check progress, and holy crap these are a 26 waist in the Rock Revivals. Damn good.


Still not 90, but still better than yesterday and calories were closer to 1000. I don’t think I’m gonna keep this fast up beyond tonight; I’ve felt ridiculously shitty doing this. And its made me grumpy and really self critical, like earlier. So yeah, weekend fast is done come morning.

Still not 90, but still better than yesterday and calories were closer to 1000. I don’t think I’m gonna keep this fast up beyond tonight; I’ve felt ridiculously shitty doing this. And its made me grumpy and really self critical, like earlier. So yeah, weekend fast is done come morning.


So fats didn’t get up to 90%, but this is the best I’ve done on carbs (12g) this whole time, so. Happy enough lol

So fats didn’t get up to 90%, but this is the best I’ve done on carbs (12g) this whole time, so. Happy enough lol



:)

Just got my body fat checked again. The last time I went (i think in like…January?)it had shot back up to 32%, and I’m happy to say that its now down to 29%! I was super relieved to see that number, I know I’m back on the right track


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hey :) i saw your post about eating more after you've been ill... random suggestion, but maybe youre deficient in something from the flu? i had bad stomach issues recently and my eating went crazy, took some multivits with iron and i've actually felt way more balanced. just a suggestion - our bodies can give us crazy cravings when we're lacking in something! hope you're well anyway xx
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Hi :D ~ I was thinking almost the exact same thing! I bet I am really low on something. I’ve know been slacking on taking my potassium and mag supplements, and I got a wicked calf cramp to pay for that the other day that is still hurting today. So I’m gonna have to start being better about this. Thank you for taking the time to write to me!  

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On the topic of my weight steadily creeping up, I realized that I can’t buy whipped cream in a can and have it in my house, because I devour it in like 24 hours. I didn’t realize how quickly I was going through it and just how many CARBS WERE IN IT ALL TOGETHER. I’ve def NOT been below the 50g carb max like I thought. Back to bring strict! 


Meh

I don’t know whats changed, but I am eating like a crazy person lately. I always get like a week of crazy hungriness and munchie attacks before my period, but this has been happening for waaay longer than it should. I’ve been over my calories for almost two weeks straight - actually, from right about when I got over that stomach flu. I still managed to get down to that 135 (though it only stayed for a day…) and i’ve kept carbs down below the 50g max, even if calories are up.

So. Not sure what to do about this. Maybe once this TOM comes and goes, things’ll level back out.