Been CRAVING pumpkin bread, but I won’t let myself have the sugar laden pieces from school. So, making my own! Organic pumpkin, erythritol, and almond flour, each piece should only have about 3 net carbs :))))

Been CRAVING pumpkin bread, but I won’t let myself have the sugar laden pieces from school. So, making my own! Organic pumpkin, erythritol, and almond flour, each piece should only have about 3 net carbs :))))


Found some cool lighting last night. Bicep and humongo tri. I have a shoulder, I promise, they just are still lost under my extra arm mass lol
Another cool thing, my under bust area has shrunk like crazy lately; I’ve had to wear an extender with my sports bra since I got it, I can now use the actual hooks, and even the second ones in.

Found some cool lighting last night. Bicep and humongo tri. I have a shoulder, I promise, they just are still lost under my extra arm mass lol

Another cool thing, my under bust area has shrunk like crazy lately; I’ve had to wear an extender with my sports bra since I got it, I can now use the actual hooks, and even the second ones in.


Guys guys guys look. Forearm muscles! And I have an actual shoulder! And my under arm isn’t sagging even close to how it used to, and so,  there’s nothing to bulge out near my armpit when I put my arm down! That’s happened for years and I’ve hated it always, and its gone.
:) good stufffff all around

Guys guys guys look. Forearm muscles! And I have an actual shoulder! And my under arm isn’t sagging even close to how it used to, and so,  there’s nothing to bulge out near my armpit when I put my arm down! That’s happened for years and I’ve hated it always, and its gone.

:) good stufffff all around


The Zydrate gun goes somewhere against your anatomy.
Feeling really good lately, amazingly so. So have a pretty selfie.

The Zydrate gun goes somewhere against your anatomy.

Feeling really good lately, amazingly so. So have a pretty selfie.


Week five of following a consistent, 6-day program, and i feel really good. Tested my leg press today (cuz i was actually at my school gym and not in my front yard) and my ORM is like 210. Excited to see how much higher that gets before years end.


Back to Keto

So. After my bad news in july, all of my four months of keto went out the window. And then I went on vacation. Since I got back, ive mostly kept to a high fat, low carb under 100 net, plan. Full carb had me feeling horrible, and low carb better, I feel good, but itsleaving me so bloated, I look pregnant.

As of today, I’ve gotten 3 weeks of 6-days-a-week lifting back under my belt, im going to keep it up no matter what, eating enough, and im going to return to fairly strict keto. I’m going to try and bulk until around Christmas, and then cut to July, when I should be going to Australia. This is just another one of my “plans” that never seem to work, but with that vacation in mind, im really going to try and do this right. AND I am so sick of starting over and losing progress. Im going to go as strong as I can, for as long as I can, because I want to be strong and I want to prove I can really do this and change my body.


Dumbbells and fingernails

Dumbbells and fingernails


Happy birthday to meeeeee

Happy birthday to meeeeee


Once again, I’ve fucked up. Haven’t been eating enough and been doing too much cardio. Got by body composition checked and I’ve actually gained two pounds in fat, while my weight loss has been from losing FOUR pounds of muscle and two from water. WTF. I thought it was just keto working, but nope.

I know better, too. I know i need to eat more and lift way more, not burn a shit ton and eat at a huge deficit. I don’t know how i got into this bad way. I’m paying for it now. Time to start again.


Good morning with keto cream cheese and flax waffles! So good. Don’t even need syrup, just butter and nom

Good morning with keto cream cheese and flax waffles! So good. Don’t even need syrup, just butter and nom


Finally, this is a positive post! I’m feeling really good lately and seeing actual progress. I can finally see my Venus dimples on my back!! And my stomach is shrinking like mad, I might even have the start of baby abs at the top. So even if my weight is hovering around 135, I know my body fat its probably the lowest its ever been :)
Feeling so good, I decided it was finally time to get my collarbone dermals and damn am I happy. My plan is to get another two once these heal. I had one dermal years ago that i had to have taken out, so I’m gonna be crazy careful with these.

Finally, this is a positive post! I’m feeling really good lately and seeing actual progress. I can finally see my Venus dimples on my back!! And my stomach is shrinking like mad, I might even have the start of baby abs at the top. So even if my weight is hovering around 135, I know my body fat its probably the lowest its ever been :)

Feeling so good, I decided it was finally time to get my collarbone dermals and damn am I happy. My plan is to get another two once these heal. I had one dermal years ago that i had to have taken out, so I’m gonna be crazy careful with these.


All i seem to do is vent here, but oh well.

I’ve seen 134.8 on the scale two times now, a month apart from each other, both for just a day before it went back up. Sigh.

Another frustrating thing is my inner thighs look disgusting lately. I never had cellulite before even at my highest weight, but now the skin there looks bumpy and pinchy and like its layered/lumpy/wrinkly? And it looks like pudding when i walk. Its so discouraging. I’ve heard that fat looks worse sometimes before it goes, I hope that’s all that’s going on….


Can’t sleep (4 am as I queue this). Realized I missed #ThrowbackThursday so, tada. Almost exactly two years apart, just a few days short. 45 lb difference, but bitchy resting face will remain always.

Can’t sleep (4 am as I queue this). Realized I missed #ThrowbackThursday so, tada. Almost exactly two years apart, just a few days short. 45 lb difference, but bitchy resting face will remain always.


Considering I haven’t been able to lift for awhile, my bum looks pretty good. My arm muscles have kinda shrunk, but the glutes havent much lol. Also, I bought these Pink leggings like 6 months ago in a small and they were kinda tight - they fit nicely now! Good stuff all around.

Considering I haven’t been able to lift for awhile, my bum looks pretty good. My arm muscles have kinda shrunk, but the glutes havent much lol. Also, I bought these Pink leggings like 6 months ago in a small and they were kinda tight - they fit nicely now! Good stuff all around.


Why did i wait so long to try and make these? Cream cheese pancakes are amazing

Why did i wait so long to try and make these? Cream cheese pancakes are amazing